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1st Sunday of Lent (A) - Lent - a time to purify our “why”.  

When I arrived at my parents’ house Thursday night, they were watching the Olympics.  I got there during the final routine of the women’s figure skating competition.  American Alysa Liu won the gold medal - the first American woman to win gold in the event in 22 years.  But that was not the big story.  The big story was her unlikely comeback to the sport and that it culminated in winning the gold medal.  At the age of 13, Liu became the youngest woman in the U.S. to win a national championship.  At 16, she made it to the Olympics in Beijing and finished in 7th place.  After finishing 3rd in the world championships in 2022, she decided to retire from the sport.  Her reasoning: she wasn’t enjoying figure skating anymore.  From age 5 to 16, her whole life revolved around the ice.  She missed out on time with family and friends.  At that time in her life, she felt that it was her duty to go to the Olympics.  She was trying to be the skater everybody else wanted her to be, and she had had enough.  She fulfilled her end of the bargain, she explained, so it was time to retire.  So why did she come back?  And what was different this time?  She hadn’t touched her skates in two and a half years.  She went on a ski trip with some friends and enjoyed skiing.  Maybe, she wondered, would skating be fun too?  (If she was skating competitively since she was 5 years old, I guess it was never something she did for fun).  She went skating when she got home and enjoyed it.   After a couple of more practices, she let her coach know that she wanted to compete again, but this time it would be on her terms.  This time, she would skate out of love of skating, not to win a medal.  She was skating out of the joy of skating and the joy of expressing herself.  Her coaches never focussed on “winning”.  One commentator said, “she shows up and delivers because she is just skating.  Her ‘why’ is so pure.”  The difference is that skating was now being done for its intrinsic reward and not as a means to an end - to get something else.  So it was no longer a competition with others or a means to prove herself.  She wasn’t feeling the pressure she felt before.  Skating was now a gift that she was freely giving and sharing with others.  Said one commentator about Liu after her comeback, “She invites you not just to be a spectator but to be an active participant in her performance.”  With this new perspective, Liu in the Olympics gave the best performance of her life, achieved her highest score ever, and won the gold medal.  She said back in 2024, the difference now is that she doesn’t base her worth on skating.  There is more to her life than skating.  After winning the gold medal, she said, “I love the adventure.  I love the journey of life, and I hope my story, which is not finished being written, will inspire others.”  Liu is a witness to the freedom and joy that comes when we look at life as a gift given to share instead of a project of our own making  - a work that is merely a means to another end.  When she was treated as a “project” by others and saw her life as a means to an end, she experienced life as a chore and was unhappy, ceasing to like the gift that she was given.  When she freely discovered the gift she was given and followed that delight, exercising it for its own sake, she was free.  As one commentator said, she won gold by skating out of pure joy. 

          Our readings today on this first Sunday of Lent remind us that life is a gift from God and that our Fall comes from taking life into our own hands instead of recognizing it and receiving it as a gift.  All sin in some way is a re-play of the original sin.  This is the temptation that Satan always levels at us.  The sin is not that Adam and Eve wanted to be like God - that desire is good - it is a desire that God gave us since we are made in his image.  He has breathed this life into us; therefore, we are fundamentally dependent on Him.   It is that desire that gives us life and moves us into action.  We are made for something greater than this life, but we cannot achieve or fulfill that desire on our own.  The temptation is try to be like God but without God, and it is always is an attempt that falls short and leaves our life empty and frustrated.  Jesus answers the temptations of Satan by always making reference to God.  Let’s look at the temptations.  1) If you are the Son of God, command that these stones become loaves of bread.  What’s the temptation?  Satisfy your own hunger - a hunger defined by physical needs.  Jesus’ response: “One does not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God.”  There is more to life than our physical life.  We can achieve all measure of human greatness, i.e., satisfy every earthly desire, yet it will still not be enough.  Our life comes from being in relationship with God and listening to his word, being receptive to and following his word.  What is the 2nd temptation spoken by Satan when he and Jesus are standing on the highest point of the temple?  “If you are the Son of God, throw yourself down, for God will save you.”  In other words, show me and others that you are who you say you are.  Prove yourself.  Show us how great you are  - how special you are.  Do something to wow us.  The temptation is to base your worth on performance - doing something spectacular - proving your worth through performance.  Jesus’ response, again referring to God, is that we do not have to prove ourselves.  Our worth is in that we have been given life by God.  He has loved us first.  We have intrinsic value and worth before we do anything.  This temptation is expresses a doubt that we are loved and asks God to prove it to us.  We do not have to do anything more to prove it, and neither does God.  And the third temptation is that we can have the world but as long as it comes before God.  As long as we do not worship God, that is all the Devil cares about.  Satan wants to be like God.  He wants us to worship him.  Is that a real temptation?  None of us are going to join the church of Satan.  But worshiping or giving the highest priority in our life to anything other than God is no different than worshipping Satan.  There is something transactional in this third temptation.  If you give me this, I will give you that.  The temptation is to turn our life and our relationships into transactions instead of seeing them as gifts.  It is a temptation that I have to bargain my way to happiness and fulfillment.  Life becomes then a quid pro quo in which we are always looking for a competitive advantage.  We do things for a reward.  Everything becomes a means to an end.  We do things not for the good they are in themselves or primarily for the good of the other but instead to get something in return.  When relationships become utilitarian, we can justify all kinds of evils for the greater good that we think will result.  But unless we make ourselves a free gift to the other, we will not be happy. 

          What St. Paul says repeatedly in the 2nd reading is that salvation is a gift - a gift unlike the transgression.  Jesus remedies Adam’s sin of taking in disobedience by giving his life in obedience.  Salvation cannot be earned; it can only be received.  We can only be saved if we see life as a gift - as a mercy - as an abundance of grace, and live what we have received, i.e., allow ourselves to be moved by the love we have received.  Alysa Liu fell in love again with skating, and began to skate out of Love for skating and not for any other reason.  We too can turn our spiritual life into a workout, a routine, or a regimen that we think of as a means to an end. But when that happens, we make our life unhappy.  And eventually it becomes frustrating and empty to do those things.  Lent is a time to fall back in love with God or to discover perhaps for the first time that God loves us and that our fulfillment and purpose in life comes from making a gift of our lives to others in exercising the gifts and talents we have been given for the glory of God.  Lent is a time to purify our “why” - why we do what we do.  Lets pray to see our life as a gift from God and to live our life as a gift for God alone. When our prayer, fasting, and works of mercy are done for the Lord alone, that is as gifts, not as means to an end, we will experience the joy and delight that the Lord has always desired to give us.  I love this line from the movie “Chariots of Fire”, the story about the English missionary to China and Olympic runner, Eric Liddell, who won both a bronze and a gold medal in the 1924 Olympics.  Eric is explaining to his sister why he continues to run: “I believe God made me for a purpose: for China.  But He also made me fast.  And when I run, I feel His pleasure.”  And that is an experience that is worth more than gold.