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5th Sunday in Ordinary Time (A) - “Then light shall rise for you in the darkness…”

There was a time in my life, from the time I was in college until I entered the seminary, that I relentlessly consumed political news and information.  And I was consumed with politics.  Almost every free moment I had, I was listening to talk radio, reading political commentary, and watching news programming.  There was something empowering about it - knowing what was going on in the world, having an opinion about important matters, and being able to discuss intelligently current events.  I even, when I was in college, hosted a political roundtable discussion show on the university television station.  There was definitely a great degree of entertainment value in the drama of the political debate and being engaged in it - it was fun on some level.  But I think I was drawn to politics also because, from a worldly perspective, politics was how things got done.  Influencing politics - being involved in politics - was a way to “make a difference” - to do good and to right wrongs in the world.  A few years after college, I moved to the Washington, DC area and began working in political public relations.  I worked for several public relations firms and got to see up-close some of the “movers and shakers” that before I had only seen on TV - the politicians and consultants that were the players in the political game.  There was something exhilarating about being close to the “levers of power” and being in the know about what I thought was really going on in the world, but I soon discovered that what I thought would make me happy and fulfilled was not doing the trick.  In the political arena, I found out, as the saying goes, “there was a lot of heat but not much light.”  There really weren’t “good guys and bad guys” or a genuine pursuit of the truth, but everybody was using a different angle to achieve or to maintain positions of power and influence.  There were very few “true believers” or ideological purists.  Rather, people did what was necessary to stay on top or get back on top when the political tide turned.  After a while of trying to convince myself that politics was still the career for me while interiorly I was very confused, I found myself in a very dark place.  I found no joy in what I was doing but didn’t want to quit.  I think I was afraid to quit because I didn’t know what else to do.  I didn’t want to be a quitter, but the longer I kept at it, the more the cognitive dissonance increased.  I was becoming stressed out and filled with gloom about the future.  Eventually, my boss, a good man, had to let me go because I just couldn’t do the job anymore.  In my early twenties, I was still practicing the faith - going to Mass every Sunday, living a morally upright life, and praying that God make known his will to me.  But I wasn’t getting any answers. At this time, I started seeing a counselor.  She suggested that as a way to not become totally obsessed with finding a new job or at least to give myself a break from the job-hunt, that I should find a place to volunteer my time at least one day a week.  A few blocks from my apartment was a homeless shelter called “Christ’s House” that was run by the Diocese of Arlington.  I had walked past this place many times and decided to stop in.  I started volunteering one day a week serving the homeless men at the soup kitchen, and I even gave a short course on financial literacy - teaching practical stuff like opening a bank account, balancing a checkbook, and establishing a personal budget.  At a time when my idea of how I was to make a difference through politics fell apart, I saw in a very concrete way how I was making a difference by “sharing my bread with the hungry, sheltering the oppressed and the homeless, and not turning my back on my own.”  This charitable work filled my heart with joy - a joy and a peace that I had never known.      I had thought happiness would come through money, power, and reputation and being close to those who had those things, yet here I was giving myself in service of the poor - those without money, power, or reputation - without making any money in the process, and it was satisfying in an unbelievable way. It opened me up to really question my ideas about what I should do with my life.  It was soon after this experience that my prayer was answered.  God said to me, “Here I am!”  I began actively to discern a call to the priesthood.  Even though at that time, I wasn’t sure I was meant to be a priest, my interior wound was healed and the gloom was lifted from my life.  I didn’t know what form it would take, but I knew that I was called to share this light with others.  I wanted others to know this joy and peace that I experienced so they too could glorify God.  This was the meaning and difference in life that I was seeking.  From that moment on, I no longer saw politics and ideology as the answer to life’s problems.  Since then, I’ve become more attuned to how politics and ideology blind us to our shared humanity and often become an obstacle to an encounter with Christ and our neighbor.  They easily become a tool that the Evil One uses to divide us from one another and from God.  

          A friend of mine who is part of the group of friends I meet with every week for prayer and reflection is very angry and upset at the injustice going on in our country regarding the enforcement of immigration policy and the recent tragic killings in Minneapolis of two people involved in protests against Immigration and Customs Enforcement agents.  She told us that she is too angry to come to our meeting and is afraid of how she would react if any of her friends did not come to the same conclusion she has regarding the killings and the political situation in our country.  She thinks that we are being irrational if we cannot interpret the facts the same way she sees them.  We are choosing not to see things the way she sees them because we do not want to face up to the consequences of our electoral choices, so she claims.  Because we may not see things the way she sees them, she thinks that means we do not care about the injustice or are even justifying it.  We are being blinded by the devil and our ideology, she claims.  She is so angry that she cannot see Christ in us, her friends, she says.  The other side is being ideological; she is being reasonable and rational.  The other side is blinded, but she is seeing clearly.  This is how we all think in order to make sense of the position we hold.  We can get so caught up in politics and the “irrationality” of the other side, that things seem hopeless.  But this gloomy perspective comes from a self-focus that turns us inward, seeking only the information and commentary that affirms our position.  How can someone break out of this dark and isolating position?  While we might not be able to do much regarding the injustice on the ground in Minneapolis, we can share our bread with the hungry and oppressed in our own community.  These are our brothers and sisters in the Lord, and we cannot turn our backs on our own.  There are concrete ways that we can make a difference with those who are suffering and afflicted by the same injustices here.  Give to the food pantry.  Give to the Thrift Store.  Volunteer to bring food and clothing to those who are too afraid to leave their homes to go to work, to go food shopping, or to drop their children off at school.  The political dialogue now, so much more than when I was involved 30 years ago, is filled with false accusations and malicious speech, and the more we consume that product and the more we engage in it, the more it will affect our outlook on life and the way we interact with others.  We have to remove it from our midst.  Go on a media fast, find concrete ways to address the needs of the afflicted, and strive, as St. Paul says “to know nothing except Jesus Christ and him crucified.”  That is, the love, peace, and joy that comes from engaging in the works of mercy.  These are actions that speak louder than “persuasive words of wisdom.”  Religious formalism - following all the rules and rituals of the Church - without active charity is empty worship.  This is what Isaiah is challenging the Israelites to see so that their eyes will be open to the Lord and that they will realize God’s blessing.  If you are preoccupied with the news and the injustices in the world today and the future seems bleak, turn off the TV, get off YouTube, stop the scrolling, get out of your head, and serve the needy and most vulnerable in our midst.  Then “light shall rise for you in the darkness, and the gloom shall become for you like midday.”