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4th Sunday of Lent (A) - "I was blind and now I see."

The Gospel of the Man Born Blind is used by the Church on this 4th Sunday of Lent, also known as Laetare Sunday, as the 2nd “scrutiny” for the catechumens preparing for Baptism at Easter.  The purpose of a scrutiny is to examine our lives in the light of the Gospel.  For the catechumens, it is for them to see what the Lord will do in them through the celebration of the sacrament of Baptism.  For us, it is a reminder of what happened to us through the sacrament of baptism and how the Lord continues to work in our lives as we live out the graces of our baptism.  In the healing of the blind beggar, Jesus does several things that symbolize the effects of baptism.  Jesus spits on the ground and makes clay with his saliva and smears the clay on the eyes of the blind man.  We can say that the saliva of Jesus is the “liquid breath” of God.  How did God form man at the Creation?  He formed him out of the clay of the earth and breathed life into him.  Baptism is the way we are re-created and reformed in the image of God after that image has been disfigured by sin.  We have a natural birth - born into the state of original sin inherited from our first parents after the Fall, and through baptism, we are re-born as adopted sons and daughters of God.   Jesus tells him to wash in the Pool of Siloam.  The waters of baptism wash us from the stain of original sin (and any personal sin if we are baptized as adults) and unite us to Christ.  We are baptized into Christ and join in his mission as the one “sent” by the Father.  “Siloam”, St. John tells us, means “Sent”.  Baptism fills us with the light of Christ so we can see in his light and become Christ’s light in the world.  That is why we receive a candle at our baptism - a candle lit from the Easter candle - symbolizing that we have received the light of Christ - the new life of the resurrection and are united to the light of the world.  Jesus fills us with his light and his life - the life of God. 

          When asked if he was the blind beggar who was made able to see, the man says, “I am.”  This is the same way Jesus refers to himself.  When walking on the water toward the disciples (6:20), he says to them, “It is I.  Do not be afraid.”  And when the Samaritan woman at the well made reference to the Messiah, the Anointed one, Jesus says to her, “I am he, the one speaking with you” (4:26).  “I am” is the divine name - as God revealed himself in the burning bush to Moses - “I am who am” (Ex. 3:14).  Here John is teaching that in Baptism we become “other Christs” - filled with the life of God.  The anointing of baptism makes us “burning bushes” - signs of his presence in the world. 

          The man becomes a witness to Christ, not by giving a detailed theological explanation of what happened (he really can’t explain it), but he witnesses to Christ by speaking simply of the change that his encounter with Jesus generated in him.  “One thing I do know is that I was blind and now I see.”  The change that happens in us - the concrete change that happens in us that doesn’t come from ourselves - is the sign of Christ’s presence.  We believe not simply by a theological teaching but because of a fact that happens in our flesh.  This is how we learn  - how we become disciples of Jesus - by recognizing the change that meeting him produces in our life.  I always ask the the catechumens and the candidates, “how has meeting Jesus - coming to Mass, growing in prayer, meeting weekly to learn and to listen to the word of God, and following and spending time with your sponsors and other active Catholics - changed your life?  We need to ask ourselves the same question, because the Lenten journey is about conversion - a change in our life.  If we are not aware of that change, we cannot share the light of Christ with others.  Speaking of the change Christ has worked in our life is how we share the light of Christ with others.  E.g., the way to teach somebody about the Real Presence of Jesus in the Eucharist is not through a theological explanation of transubstantiation or stringing together scripture quotes that support that teaching.  It is good to know that stuff, but the way to teach that truth is to witness to the change in your life when you began to go to Adoration of the Blessed Sacrament or began to receive Jesus frequently in Holy Communion.  What is convincing is not an argument but the fact that you have changed through this experience - a change that another can see in you.  There is a definite difference in you from before meeting Jesus and after.  The change we see in ourselves - often a surprising change, is what gives us the certainty and the courage to speak of Christ.  The change in us is what opens our eyes to believe and to enter into real worship of God. 

          The condition necessary for us to be freed from sin is to recognize our blindness.  A blind person needs someone to guide him.  A blind person needs to put his hand on another and follow.  A blind person is keenly aware of his dependence on others.  A blind person, because he can’t see, must be a more attentive listener.  A blind person knows his vision is limited - that he doesn’t have the complete picture.  He can’t rely totally on himself but needs to ask for assistance.  A blind person, in many ways, depends on the mercy of others, and learns to accept that dependence.  When we recognize our blindness, we will seek the light and let the light enter.  The bigger blindness, in fact, is to presume we already have the answer or the complete picture - that we can see clearly and find our way on our own.  If we think we already have the answer, there is no way for us to see the light - there is no possibility to learn and to grow.  Our presumptions and preconceptions blind us from seeing and accepting the facts before our eyes.  The Pharisees try to find all kinds of reasons to discount the evidence about the healing of the blind man by Jesus, and when that fails, they just throw the guy out.  They attack the man’s credibility, mock him, and then kick him out of the synagogue because he presents evidence counter to the established narrative and the criteria they have set up.  “This man can’t be from God because he does not keep the Sabbath.”  “He’s a sinner.”  “Cancel culture” is not a modern invention. 

          When we experience darkness or spiritual suffering of some kind, like the disciples do upon seeing the blind man, we wonder if we have sinned in some way or se seek to blame someone else or the situation we are born into for the cause of our trouble.  From appearances, it seems that God has abandoned us - we don’t “feel” his love.  It is without a doubt that our own sin and the sins of others can cause suffering in our lives, but sometimes God allows the “darkness” - even a darkness not caused by sin, so we can be purified of our dependence on ourselves.  When we are beginners at prayer and get “good” at prayer, there is the temptation to do it for the consolations or to think that God is rewarding me for my persistence in prayer.  The purpose of the darkness - the spiritual trial - is to take away our taste for prayer and sometimes our ability to pray itself - so that we begin to realize that God loves me unconditionally - not based on my goodness or what I can offer him.  I have nothing to offer, so I must depend and trust in his mercy.  To hope in the Lord in the midst of the darkness, not trying to figure it out, but simply becoming a blind beggar, is what sets us free.  We do then the good freely without seeking a reward.  That is conversion that God desires and wants to work in us - to know fundamentally that we cannot save ourselves - that salvation is a grace.  The purpose of the darkness we suffer is so the works of God might be made visible in us.  The darkness is the prelude to the light of God’s glory.  The purpose of the darkness is for my transformation into light.  The problem is not not being able to see but thinking that just because I can’t see, there is no hope.  The hope in this Gospel is that God can heal someone born into total darkness - that the light of Christ can penetrate even where humanly there has never been light.  We are not abandoned in the darkness but the Lord seeks us out.

          Sometimes we are made blind so that we can see with new eyes - the eyes of faith.  Let’s not be afraid of the darkness for when we let it purify us of our self-reliance, we can become a light that reveals the presence of Christ.