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Holy Thursday Mass of the Lord’s Supper - “Do you realize what I have done for you?” 

On Holy Thursday, the Church commemorates the institution of the Sacraments of the Eucharist and the Priesthood and the Lord’s commandment concerning fraternal charity.  This morning at the Cathedral, at the Chrism Mass with Archbishop Perez, I renewed my priestly promises - the promises made on the day of my ordination.  Those promises include being resolved to be more united with Jesus and more conformed to him, denying myself in service to the Church; being resolved to be faithful stewards of the sacramental mysteries we celebrate and faithful in our role as teachers of the faith, following Christ in not seeking any gain but being moved only by zeal for souls.  The Archbishop in his homily reflected on his own call to the priesthood and why he said yes, and he encouraged us to do the same - to reflect on the fact that we are here as his priests, serving the mystery of salvation.  He said, we are often asked, “Why did you want to become a priest?”  He struggled with this question, even as a deacon, within a year of his ordination.  He spoke to one of his professors, a priest at the seminary, about his struggle to answer that question, and the professor said, “You don’t become a priest because you want to, but because God wants you to be a priest.  God calls you to be a priest.”  Then the professor added, “anybody who wants to be a priest, shouldn’t be a priest.”  We don’t want to be priests because the priesthood is really an embrace of the cross.  A priest is a man of sacrifice conformed to Christ crucified.  When we face this mystery and call, we should tremble and hesitate.  Looked at abstractly, it is hard to say, “I want that life”, but we say “Yes” because of the new life that is generated in us when we follow what the Master says.  “The Master has need of it” as we heard in the reading of the entrance Gospel on Palm Sunday last Sunday.  That was the explanation given to the disciples if they faced any doubt or question when preparing the way for Jesus to enter Jerusalem for his passion and death.  What gave the Archbishop peace and took away his struggle regarding his vocation that deacon year was when a lady he did not know came up to him after Mass, took him by the hands, kissed his hands, and said, “I need you to be a priest.”  He heard God speaking to him through that woman.  It is not about what you want, but a priestly vocation is a response to a need of humanity for God.  It is a response in conformity to Christ’s response to our sinfulness.  God humbled himself, accepting the cross, denying his divine prerogatives, so to redeem us in our poverty and sin.  He became poor so that we could share in the riches of God. 

          John’s Gospel that we hear every Mass of the Lord’s Supper on Holy Thursday, does not contain an account of the institution of the Eucharist like the other three Gospels.  Rather, John’s Last Supper account has Jesus washing the feet of the disciples.  In a similar way in which the breaking of the bread and the blessing of the cup sacramentally represent Christ’s death on the cross, the washing of the feet - Christ stripping himself of his garment and humbling himself and performing the work of a slave, is an allusion to the humiliating death of the crucifixion, loving his disciples “to the end”, that is, completely.  The disciples don’t understand this, but they will later.  To Peter who at first resists this action of Jesus, Jesus says in effect, “unless I die for you, you will have no inheritance with me.”  Christ’s death on the cross, and our participation in this mystery, our acceptance of this mystery, is how we inherit eternal life, i.e., share in the life of God.  Christ is new Passover lamb without “without blemish” who is slaughtered for our salvation.  The flesh of the lamb in the Passover ritual had to be consumed and its blood poured out for the Israelites to be saved from death.  In the “Bread of Life” discourse Jesus says, “Whoever eats my flesh and drinks my blood has eternal life, and I will raise him on the last day.  Whoever eats my flesh and drinks my blood remains in me and I in him..…. whoever eats this bread will live forever” (Jn. 6:54, 56, 58).  Jesus asks the disciples after he washes their feet, “Do you realize what I have done for you?”  The way we “realize” what Jesus has done for us - the way we make it real for us - is to do what Jesus does.  “I have given you a model to follow, so that as I have done for you, you should also do” (13:15). 

          I asked myself, “How did I realize my vocation to the priesthood?”  How did I realize what God has done for me - how much he loved me and wanted me to share in his life?  How did I realize that Jesus is is really present in the Eucharist and that he was calling me to a life of service?  Several things all converged at about the same time.  My grandfather was deathly ill, and my mother asked me to pray for him.  I lived a few blocks from a church and began to go to daily Mass before going to work.  At around that same time, I was struggling with my career path and began looking for another job.  Someone suggested that to give myself a break from the pressure of a job search, I should volunteer someplace just one day a week.  I began to volunteer at a local soup kitchen and shelter serving meals to homeless men and spending time with them and the other volunteers.  I was surprisingly happy in this work, and wondered what it meant since it seemed so at odds with my plans for what I thought equalled success and happiness.  The combination of daily Mass and charitable work was generating a new life in me.  My grandfather died, and at his funeral, I was struck by the priest’s homily.  My grandfather was friends with the priest, and the priest spoke about my grandfather’s friendship and charity  - the friendship and help he gave to him and other priests and to a congregation of religious sisters.  Soon after this event, I heard a voice, the voice of a priest that I knew from my childhood, tell me, “Philip, they need you.”  It was then I realized what God was doing and what God had done.  I entered the seminary less than a year later. 

          “Do this in remembrance of me.”  “I have given you a model to follow, so that as I have done for you, you should also do.”  Eucharist and humble service.  Communion with Jesus and charitable work go together.  Love one another as I have loved you.  Receiving and sharing God’s love - living in Communion with him is what satisfies the need of our heart.  When I began to let go of my plans for gain and listen to my heart, I realized what God had done and wanted others to know what I had known.  I wanted them to know Jesus. 

          I came back from the Chrism mass this afternoon to find a message that a parishioner was dying and requesting the last sacraments.  I had planned to take my time to work out my homily, but that dying man needed me.  He needed me to receive Jesus - to be helped to pass from this life to eternal life.  I couldn’t celebrate this anniversary of the priesthood and what God has done for me in any better way.  I ask you to reflect upon why you are here - how you have realized what God has done for you and how you can do so also.  Please pray for priests, for an increase in priestly vocations, and do not be afraid to take the time to go to Mass more frequently and “wash one another’s feet”.  May God bless you.