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25th Sunday in Ordinary Time - September 19, 2021 - Confronting our mortality with Jesus

A friend of mine this week sent me an article published in the March 7, 2021 edition of The Atlantic titled, “Growing My Faith in the Face of Death.”  It was written by Timothy Keller, a Presbyterian minister, who was recently diagnosed with pancreatic cancer.  Since he was ordained in the mid-seventies, Keller had counseled countless families who had lost loved ones and people who were dying, but he found himself unprepared when it came to his own mortality.  He writes, “A significant number of believers in God find their faith shaken or destroyed when they learn that they will die at a time and in a way that seems unfair to them…”  One of the first things he realized from his own experience, “was that religious faith does not automatically provide solace in times of crisis. A belief in God and an afterlife does not become spontaneously comforting and existentially strengthening. Despite my rational, conscious acknowledgment that I would die someday, the shattering reality of a fatal diagnosis provoked a remarkably strong psychological denial of mortality.”  “This can’t be!  I’m not supposed to die.”   He realized he had been denying the reality of death.  In a culture that is dominated by a denial of death, for most of us, death is an abstraction - something technically true but unimaginable as a personal reality.  “For the same reason, our beliefs about God and an afterlife..…..  are often abstractions as well. If we don’t accept the reality of death, we don’t need these beliefs to be anything other than mental assents. But as death, the last enemy, became real to my heart, I realized that my beliefs would have to become just as real to my heart, or I wouldn’t be able to get through the day. Theoretical ideas about God’s love and the future resurrection had to become life-gripping truths, or be discarded as useless.”  He goes on to describe the work he did to strengthen his faith and to grow in grace, love, and wisdom so he could face his mortality without debilitating fear.  That work mainly involved reading the scriptures and bringing the word of God into his heart in prayer.  In that work of prayer - a dialogue with reality and with God - the promises of God became more real.  One of the fruits of his meditation was that the more he and his wife tried to make a heaven out of this world - the more they grounded their comfort and security in it - the less they were able to enjoy it.  He writes, “when we turn good things into ultimate things, when we make them our greatest consolations and loves, they will necessarily disappoint us bitterly.”  What he discovered was the less he attempted to make this world into a heaven, the more he was able to enjoy it. 

          We see in the struggle of this pastor the same struggle the disciples had when confronted with Jesus’ 2nd prediction of the passion.  It doesn’t seem real to them.  They don’t understand what Jesus is saying, but worse, they were afraid to question him about it.  They don’t bring their concerns to Jesus.  They don’t talk to him about it.  They are afraid to face this reality that doesn’t make sense to them.  They are afraid to face death.  Instead of conversing with Jesus, i.e., praying about this reality  - this path that Jesus describes that is the path of the disciple - they begin arguing among themselves about who is the greatest.  They are consumed with worldly things - worldly ambition.  All this is really a distraction from the deep questions about life that Jesus provokes in them and desires to answer.  What the pastor found was that when he addressed these questions with Jesus - when he asked, and sought wisdom from above, he found peace and joy.  If we are seeking consolation in our passions - the things of this world, we will be unsatisfied and won’t be at peace.  There will be a war within us that leads to disorder in our relations with others.  Take a good look at what you are watching on TV, listening to on the radio, or viewing on YouTube, Facebook, and following on Twitter.  I bet most of it is filled with arguments about who is the greatest.  All of this political talk is not really dialogue but the back and forth of jealous people filled with selfish ambition who are trying to build themselves up and tear the other side down.  Engaging in that kind of conversation is bad for the soul and is a big distraction from the reality of life and death.  One of the “gifts” of the pandemic we can say is that it has made the reality of death - the reality of our own mortality - something almost unavoidable, but the arguing and hyper-politicization of everything seems to be our collective response intended either to distract us from this reality or it is rooted an attempt to try to build a “heaven” here on earth in which death can be eliminated.  Whatever the motive, it is generating a debilitating fear among us.  Unless we face our mortality with Jesus, the one who has conquered death, we will not be able to live life, i.e., enjoy life.  We can hide from a virus only for some time, but hiding in fear will do more damage to life than confronting our mortality, embracing reality, and choosing to live with it.  We will not have a real faith unless we choose the latter.  Take time off from the wars and the conflicts among us rooted in selfish ambition and attempts to satisfy worldly passions.  Do not be afraid to bring to Jesus - to question Jesus - about your fears and the path we are on with him.  As humble children, we don’t know all the answers, but we can place our lives in God’s hands.  Take time to pray and to rest with the Lord, and we will realize that the Lord upholds our life.